Laying down my body on a comfortable bed and staring at the fan keep turning and turning. Full of memories flashing back with non-stop in my brain. All about the scars in my heart, of course thanks to those who love me and make me stand up again.
Trust No One Even Your Shadow Leaves You In The Dark
You will never and you can't make the time turns back to the past and correct what the mistakes you had done. Unless, you really have a magic stick like what we saw in those movies! But, this is not gonna happen. "Mistakes teach us lessons, not trying leave regret" & "Trust No One Even Your Shadow Leaves You In The Dark" - I truly understand these two statements and had them stamped onto my body. They will help me reminding myself everyday, every moment.
Mistakes Teach Us Lessons, Not To Leave Regret
Well, I have to admit that I was born to be stubborn. My family members and friends said this to me too. But, thanks to "STUBBORN". It teaches me a big, good lesson. In March, 2014, I was forced to shut down my shop, Weddinspired by Gilbert Ng. That day was the darkest day I had ever been through. My heart was like a piece of glass, falling down from a high table and cracking into hundreds of tiny pieces. Ya, that was a tough and hard time for me, and it took me months to walk out from the dark. Since then, I started to have negative thinking and stopped all social events. I even hid myself from meeting up with my friends, except those few who are closed to me.
I asked myself "WHY" thousands of times. However, I know by keeping asking myself "WHY" wouldn't work at all. One day, I woke up in the morning and started to throw back all the stupid things I had done and I talked to myself that I must walked out from the darkness. I started to face the reality and learnt from my mistakes. I believe everyone learn from a fall and no one will be keep walking smooth like a wind. Time is always the good medicine for recovery from the scar and pain.
In fact, I used almost two months to try to recover and walk out from my darkness moments. I tried to look for a job from internet and at the same time I booked an air ticket to Perth, Australia. I wanna to temporary escape from this country for healing purpose. I met up my buddy there and she was happy to welcome me and accompanied me for the whole trip. She always shows her mental support to me and she kept reminding me to stay strong and never give up my original dream. Millions thanks to you, my dearest Jaclyn. I stayed in Perth for more than two weeks. I walked alone in the city of Perth when Jaclyn and her sister went for work and classed. She brought me everywhere during her off days on the weekends. I started to fall in love there so much as I felt so peaceful all the time there but I knew I need to come back to my homeland and face the real life.
After a few weeks returned to my homeland, one day I received a call from a company. I was so lucky to get hired by them. At the time, I had sent this great news to my family members and I could feel they were so happy for me. Although it is just a wholesale company in Malaysia and totally can't link with what I have worked previously. Well, I told myself, "take a try and will not harm me." My dad said to me, "Take it as an experience". Maybe, this is a kind of guide from my God when I was lost. However, until today, besides this full time job, I still never give up and continue my mission as a "wedding gown designer". The only differently now is, I do it as a part time job. I don't really care how people see and think think who am I. My life is not going to change because of his or her thinking about me.
Last time I used to be give my comments with my real words to every single of my friends. Ended up, I get nothing and I get harm from their words. I slowly realize that in this real world no one likes to hear the true words from human's mouth. Unless, he or she is closed enough and knows you well. Hence, I started to shut up my mouth and never give my comments again to those people I don't know well. Now I would straight away answer, "No Comment means Comment" to whoever asks my opinion. Remember: no one would like to listen to your "bull shit"!
I try not to be busy-body to know how their lives going through or who and who get into argument.... The fact is: if you know more about their stories also you can't do anything. It's their lives and actually none of your business!!! Don't gossip and don't create your own stories about other people. If you have a good communication skill please try to get a good sales job to earn your pocket money OR if you have too much time please try to do some meaningful for your life!
I need to thank to some one always try to give me a good advice but not every of your words I am going to save into my "Memory Card". Unless, you are my family members or whom I truly believe in you. I used to be kind to listen to someone who claim he / she is a "FRIEND" to me but not now anymore. Try to filter it what they told you something. Maybe someone is using the words to push you to a trap. They will never give you a hand when you really fall into the trap, but in return, they will stand a side and clap their hands to celebrate how you fall into it. Wake up man!!!
Trust No One Even Your Shadow Leaves You In The Dark
In this fashion world you can't leave without Social. You will get to know lot of different people from the same or different industries. Everyone will look kind and glamorous under the spotlight and the camera flash. If one day you get famous and famous you will automatically get to know more people with or without introduction by friends or via social networking platforms like Facebook, Twitter, etc. By then, you will never know who are really using the heart to be friend with you.
Some people are really using the words to comfort you and make themselves closed to you. Don't try to walk into the sweet trap. This is because they wish to get something from you. You will never know what they want or what they wish to do after they know you better. Maybe your friend network connection? Your sponsorship? This sounds cruel, isn't it? But this is real life!
At first I was too stubborn to listen to my sister who advised me never to have partnership in business or in matters connected to money, with friends in any situations. "Money Argue" always makes any kind of relationship broken at the end. Now, I started to understand truly from my pain. It's never gonna forget what kind of the weapons had hurt me and it will leave into my memories until the end of my day.
After I recovered from my pain and learnt a lesson from my experience, I always keep reminding myself never ever trust anyone anymore except my family members and some of my true friends. My elder sister told me last time that, "Whenever you feel tired, home is always awaiting and welcoming you". This is how warmth when you hear this. And, a true friend is always standing beside you and cheer you up nor matter how bad your situation is and they won't mind to spend their time to accompany you to have a walk or buy you a drink or dinner to comfort you. So this is what we call Family and Friend!
I truly understand a mistake will make someone grows up and becomes stronger in this cruel world every single day when you step out from your door. I remind myself to be more careful when I speak out every single words from my mouth to someone.
I know I seem to be more negative after I went through my all these. Of course, this is my own story and I believe not everyone is having the same story like me. If you are so unfortunate to have gone through the same or similar experience like me, please try to cheer up yourself or talk to someone you may trust. Try to think about some one who is going through his / her life with more worsened journey than you.
Before ending my story, I would like to wish everyone to start a fresh great life in this coming 2015. If you are still studying in schools or colleges, just concentrate on your study and fight for the best ever result. If you have graduated and started to earn for a living, then go ahead to fight for your dream. Try to hit your goal in this year! God never fails anyone who are serious and working hard in pursuing his / her own dream. Trust me! You will get a surprise gift from Him when the right time comes.
Happy New Year 2015!!! Good luck my love <3
Some people are really using the words to comfort you and make themselves closed to you. Don't try to walk into the sweet trap. This is because they wish to get something from you. You will never know what they want or what they wish to do after they know you better. Maybe your friend network connection? Your sponsorship? This sounds cruel, isn't it? But this is real life!
At first I was too stubborn to listen to my sister who advised me never to have partnership in business or in matters connected to money, with friends in any situations. "Money Argue" always makes any kind of relationship broken at the end. Now, I started to understand truly from my pain. It's never gonna forget what kind of the weapons had hurt me and it will leave into my memories until the end of my day.
After I recovered from my pain and learnt a lesson from my experience, I always keep reminding myself never ever trust anyone anymore except my family members and some of my true friends. My elder sister told me last time that, "Whenever you feel tired, home is always awaiting and welcoming you". This is how warmth when you hear this. And, a true friend is always standing beside you and cheer you up nor matter how bad your situation is and they won't mind to spend their time to accompany you to have a walk or buy you a drink or dinner to comfort you. So this is what we call Family and Friend!
I truly understand a mistake will make someone grows up and becomes stronger in this cruel world every single day when you step out from your door. I remind myself to be more careful when I speak out every single words from my mouth to someone.
I know I seem to be more negative after I went through my all these. Of course, this is my own story and I believe not everyone is having the same story like me. If you are so unfortunate to have gone through the same or similar experience like me, please try to cheer up yourself or talk to someone you may trust. Try to think about some one who is going through his / her life with more worsened journey than you.
Before ending my story, I would like to wish everyone to start a fresh great life in this coming 2015. If you are still studying in schools or colleges, just concentrate on your study and fight for the best ever result. If you have graduated and started to earn for a living, then go ahead to fight for your dream. Try to hit your goal in this year! God never fails anyone who are serious and working hard in pursuing his / her own dream. Trust me! You will get a surprise gift from Him when the right time comes.
Happy New Year 2015!!! Good luck my love <3
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