My Journey My Story @ 2014

Laying down my body on a comfortable bed and staring at the fan keep turning and turning. Full of memories flashing back with non-stop in my brain. All about the scars in my heart, of course thanks to those who love me and make me stand up again.

You will never and you can't make the time turns back to the past and correct what the mistakes you had done. Unless, you really have a magic stick like what we saw in those movies! But, this is not gonna happen. "Mistakes teach us lessons, not trying leave regret" & "Trust No One Even Your Shadow Leaves You In The Dark" - I truly understand these two statements and had them stamped onto my body. They will help me reminding myself everyday, every moment.

Mistakes Teach Us Lessons, Not To Leave Regret

Well, I have to admit that I was born to be stubborn. My family members and friends said this to me too. But, thanks to "STUBBORN". It teaches me a big, good lesson. In March, 2014, I was forced to shut down my shop, Weddinspired by Gilbert Ng. That day was the darkest day I had ever been through. My heart was like a piece of glass, falling down from a high table and cracking into hundreds of tiny pieces. Ya, that was a tough and hard time for me, and it took me months to walk out from the dark. Since then, I started to have negative thinking and stopped all social events. I even hid myself from meeting up with my friends, except those few who are closed to me.

I asked myself "WHY" thousands of times. However, I know by keeping asking myself "WHY" wouldn't work at all. One day, I woke up in the morning and started to throw back all the stupid things I had done and I talked to myself that I must walked out from the darkness. I started to face the reality and learnt from my mistakes. I believe everyone learn from a fall and no one will be keep walking smooth like a wind. Time is always the good medicine for recovery from the scar and pain. 

In fact, I used almost two months to try to recover and walk out from my darkness moments. I tried to look for a job from internet and at the same time I booked an air ticket to Perth, Australia. I wanna to temporary escape from this country for healing purpose. I met up my buddy there and she was happy to welcome me and accompanied me for the whole trip. She always shows her mental support to me and she kept reminding me to stay strong and never give up my original dream. Millions thanks to you, my dearest Jaclyn. I stayed in Perth for more than two weeks. I walked alone in the city of Perth when Jaclyn and her sister went for work and classed. She brought me everywhere during her off days on the weekends. I started to fall in love there so much as I felt so peaceful all the time there but I knew I need to come back to my homeland and face the real life.

After a few weeks returned to my homeland, one day I received a call from a company. I was so lucky to get hired by them. At the time, I had sent this great news to my family members and I could feel they were so happy for me. Although it is just a wholesale company in Malaysia and totally can't link with what I have worked previously. Well, I told myself, "take a try and will not harm me." My dad said to me, "Take it as an experience". Maybe, this is a kind of guide from my God when I was lost. However, until today, besides this full time job, I still never give up and continue my mission as a "wedding gown designer". The only differently now is, I do it as a part time job. I don't really care how people see and think think who am I. My life is not going to change because of his or her thinking about me. 

Last time I used to be give my comments with my real words to every single of my friends. Ended up, I get nothing and I get harm from their words. I slowly realize that in this real world no one likes to hear the true words from human's mouth. Unless, he or she is closed enough and knows you well. Hence, I started to shut up my mouth and never give my comments again to those people I don't know well. Now I would straight away answer, "No Comment means Comment" to whoever asks my opinion. Remember: no one would like to listen to your "bull shit"!

I try not to be busy-body to know how their lives going through or who and who get into argument.... The fact is: if you know more about their stories also you can't do anything. It's their lives and actually none of your business!!! Don't gossip and don't create your own stories about other people. If you have a good communication skill please try to get a good sales job to earn your pocket money OR if you have too much time please try to do some meaningful for your life!

I need to thank to some one always try to give me a good advice but not every of your words I am going to save into my "Memory Card". Unless, you are my family members or whom I truly believe in you. I used to be kind to listen to someone who claim he / she is a "FRIEND" to me but not now anymore. Try to filter it what they told you something. Maybe someone is using the words to push you to a trap. They will never give you a hand when you really fall into the trap, but in return, they will stand a side and clap their hands to celebrate how you fall into it. Wake up man!!!

Trust No One Even Your Shadow Leaves You In The Dark

In this fashion world you can't leave without Social. You will get to know lot of different people from the same or different industries. Everyone will look kind and glamorous under the spotlight and the camera flash. If one day you get famous and famous you will automatically get to know more people with or without introduction by friends or via social networking platforms like Facebook, Twitter, etc. By then, you will never know who are really using the heart to be friend with you.

Some people are really using the words to comfort you and make themselves closed to you. Don't try to walk into the sweet trap. This is because they wish to get something from you. You will never know what they want or what they wish to do after they know you better. Maybe your friend network connection? Your sponsorship? This sounds cruel, isn't it? But this is real life!

At first I was too stubborn to listen to my sister who advised me never to have partnership in business or in matters connected to money, with friends in any situations. "Money Argue" always makes any kind of relationship broken at the end. Now, I started to understand truly from my pain. It's never gonna forget what kind of the weapons had hurt me and it will leave into my memories until the end of my day.

After I recovered from my pain and learnt a lesson from my experience, I always keep reminding myself never ever trust anyone anymore except my family members and some of my true friends. My elder sister told me last time that, "Whenever you feel tired, home is always awaiting and welcoming you". This is how warmth when you hear this. And, a true friend is always standing beside you and cheer you up nor matter how bad your situation is and they won't mind to spend their time to accompany you to have a walk or buy you a drink or dinner to comfort you. So this is what we call Family and Friend!

I truly understand a mistake will make someone grows up and becomes stronger in this cruel world every single day when you step out from your door. I remind myself to be more careful when I speak out every single words from my mouth to someone.

I know I seem to be more negative after I went through my all these. Of course, this is my own story and I believe not everyone is having the same story like me. If you are so unfortunate to have gone through the same or similar experience like me, please try to cheer up yourself or talk to someone you may trust. Try to think about some one who is going through his / her life with more worsened journey than you.

Before ending my story, I would like to wish everyone to start a fresh great life in this coming 2015. If you are still studying in schools or colleges, just concentrate on your study and fight for the best ever result. If you have graduated and started to earn for a living, then go ahead to fight for your dream. Try to hit your goal in this year! God never fails anyone who are serious and working hard in pursuing his / her own dream. Trust me! You will get a surprise gift from Him when the right time comes.

Happy New Year 2015!!! Good luck my love <3

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Appreciation @ Fashion Asia 2014

OMG, I know this is kind of a long story with the same title, I hope it doesn't make you bored. Well, this will be the last post for Fashion Asia. As I mentioned earlier, this part will be my appreciation notes to those I am grateful. Without them, I don't think I could reach this point of success. This award is for all of you, my beloved family members, teachers and friends. 

The only reason why I wanna express my heartedly appreciation here is because I didn't give a good speech on the stage on the award presentation night. I owe them this!

First of all, I would like to give a big thanks to my greatly respected lecturer, Carven Ong who is the person nominated me to this Fashion Asia 2014, I will never forget the great experiences he gave me which money can't buy. Besides this, I am so thankful for the encouragement and cheer from 96st magazines, friends and family members. I am truly blessed to have all of you around me. Your cheers through text messages mean a lot to me. I want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart. No words could actually well describe how thankful I am to you, everyone of you! Last but not least, special thanks go to the organizer team members who have assisted us in fulfilling all our needs and demands during these few days while we were in Chongqing. The most important thing is they have made this event a meaningful and memorable moments to me! Millions thanks again to all of you. Love you <3

It was in fact a memorable trip for me. I met up with many new friends from different countries of Asia. We had such great days being togetherness, fulfilling with laughs, joys and cheers throughout these 4 days 3 nights trip, leaving a wonderful memory in my life. Miss all of you and wish we could meet up again in the coming years!

Before ending this topic, let me share with you the lesson I gained from this competition. Grasp any opportunities which come to your way. You never know the result without trying and taking challenge yourself. Do not fear to take any challenge or risk in your life. Know yourself and set your goal well and then move forward towards it with full effort and will. Dare to fail! Even if you fail, it doesn't mean the end of the world. Stand up, recover, be strong and fight again. You will do it one day!!!

Lastly, I am going to share some media coverage from China and Malaysia. There are some video interviews which I am unable to share here, apology. Thank you.

http://e.chinacqsb.com/html/2014-11/06/content_454611.htm

http://e.chinacqsb.com/html/2014-11/06/node_5.htm

Nan Yang Siang Pau

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Recognition @ Fashion Asia - Part 3

Finally it came to the final awesome day - The Award Presentation and Fashion Showcase Day! I woke up very early and had my wonderful breakfast before heading to the venue for rehearsal and to ensure everything was in good condition before the show started. Our schedule was quite packed that day as all preparation must be done and we needed to send all our showcase items to the venue by 4pm. By the time we finished the full rehearsal was almost 2pm already. All of us rushed back to our hotel room to dress up. I had a quick bath and dressed up myself in the best look I could. We then went back to the venue. I did my final check to ensure everything was well set up and ready in good condition, this included background music, gowns and models, etc. 

Suit, shirt, pant and bow tie from: Zara Man

How could I miss the selfie section with all the awesome people!

This year the ceremony was held at Belfry Square Nanbin Road, City Centre of Chongqing, China. The stage was well designed and organized, well done to the organizer team. The stage was built at the opened square. When the Master of Ceremony announced our arrivals, 5 of us from Malaysia were led by Sean Chia (the Person-In-Charged of Malaysian nominators), walking towards the stage through the long red carpet. There was a huge board for us to sign our names. I felt myself being treated like a Superstar! It was really a different experience for me. Cool~

I followed very closely for every announcement of the award presentation. Of cause I wish all 5 of us from Malaysia would bring home the respective awards. Our joyous moment came when we get to know Carol Lee won the Asia Top Fashion Anchor of The Year, I was really happy for her and proud of her. "Congratulations to you, Carol Lee", I whispered in my heart.

When came to my category, I need to move to the front row. From that moment onward, my body was like without soul and my mind was blank. Suddenly I heard my name was being announced. Believe me, it was really a surprise to me. I really won the award! In fact I didn't really clearly heard my name was being called, but only heard: "..... from Malaysia." It was me! I was the winner of Asia Top Fashion Upcoming Designer of the Year 2014. Thank God, all my effort was being rewarded and recognized with this award. It really meant a lot for me. 

Seriously, honestly... when I stood up and walked to the stage, I still doubted whether I was in real life or I was in my sweet dream! Please forgive me that I couldn't give a good speech that time as my mind was blank. I could only thank a few people who came across my mind and I missed out many of others. It was really happened in a sudden and was a big surprise to me because in my heart I thought nominator from China was also doing well and she was most likely to win that award.

While I was having a media interview after I walked down from the stage, I heard Alvin Tay also won the prize too. What a big good news to us, 3 Malaysians brought the awards back to Malaysia!!! We were proud of ourselves being Malaysians!

I have to stop here as it is being very lengthy, I shall come back with more sharing appreciation notes which I owe to many of them. Stay tune with me... <3

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New Acquaintance @ Fashion Asia - Part 2

On the first day, we were invited to attend the opening ceremony for this competition. You could also find Carol Lee, Wilson Tan, Amber Chia and Alvin Tay in the photo presented below. Of course, they were also the finalists of this competition under different categories. Asia Top Fashion Anchor of The Year - Carol Lee, Asia Top Fashion Model of the Year (Male Category) - Wilson Tan, Asia Top Fashion Model of The Year (Female Category) - Amber Chia, Asia Fashion Designer of The Year (Haute Couture) - Alvin Tay & me for Asia Fashion Up Coming Designer of The Year.

On the second day, we woke up very early just to get ourselves dressed up for the press conference. It was to my surprise that everyone of us would have to be at stage for a short self-introduction. When I get to know about it, my mind went BLANK! OMG, it's so stressful when you know you need talk on stage about yourself in front of so many media representatives and other nominators. Well, again, I was proud of myself, I did it, well enough... with a short yet straight forward self-introduction... ==lll

Selfie time with Alvin, Amber, Wilson and Carol~

Just ignore my stupid face, lol  

How the serious faces when we were having the Data in China~

Some one is missing in this picture! It's Amber, that time she went for a shop to buy something for her best friend!!!

Our joyous moments came after dinner during our free time, we decided to hang out walking around the city.  Forgot to mention, making new acquaintance was one of the most meaningful gain I get from this competition trip. The city was full of night happenings. After having fun walking and eating local food, we finally stopped at a pub enjoying drinks and chatting among us. It's kind of relax and enjoyment ~ I love it so much <3

Entering the third day, this was the most stressful day for the whole trip to me as we were having our " FITTING DAY". Model fitting is the most "adventurous" for me, this is because we had to depend on our luck in choosing models - LUCKY DRAW. This means that I didn't even know how my models look like before I came for this competition. Well, whatever, God would always guide the right way for us ~ I am not going to post any photos of the fitting process, because they are not well taken. Don't worry, stay with me till the end, I shall show you some photos of the fashion show case. You would be able to see the models and my gowns.

After model fitting section we needed to rush back to hotel to dress up again for attending jewelry show later. This show was so grand to me, besides showing the jewelry, there was a cocktail awaiting us. They served wine, coffee and some finger food to warm up our stomach as the weather in Chongqing that time was very cold. 

Jacket from: Zara Man
Shirt from: TopShop
Pant from: Topshop
Shoe from: Bonia

Let me introduce to you this special new friend of mine. Though we just met and know each other in this trip, I love her "craziness", Michelle Hee. She is a such nice friend and we kept talking nonsense and made jokes and laughs. Of course, she kept sharing with me how her working life in Singapore. She works as a stylist and needs to guide a huge team to work together with her. Such a powerful and capable girl, give her a big LIKE!!! I don't mind to tell you guys a secret about us, we called ourselves as Ah Beng and Ah Lian, lol... because we don't like to show fake face/smile or be glamorous in front of people. We would just like to be the real us at all times.

After the jewelry show, there was a short video interview! Again, I had to answer questions the reporter asked in front of the video camera. Luckily it was just a short one. 

Tomorrow would be the award presentation day. I would have more interesting experience to share. Stay with me... will be back very soon.

To be continued....

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Nomination @ Fashion Asia - Part 1

Time flies... suddenly I realized that I have been disappeared for more than a year...

To be honest, this is because I have gone through the darkest moments in my life. It's quite sad to disclose this to all of you, however, I know it's time to share it with you what I felt in my deep heart. Nevertheless, I am very grateful as I am still standing strong despite all the unhappiness and pains which I experienced for the last 12 months. Glad to have true friends with me when I was down, pulling me up, encouraging me with countless nights, just to make sure I am fine. Thanks.

Well, I am back with something great to share with you. The story began with this ...

Last October, one day, I got a call from Carven Ong telling me that he has nominated me to join a competition which was held in China. At first I didn't wish to join because I was not confident enough to participate any competition anymore. Carven encouraged and asked me to try my best and just take it as an experience. After the phone call, I only hesitated for few moments and decided to take the challenge. Once I received the participation form from the organizer, I just filled up my personal details and emailed back to them.

Few weeks passed, I have almost forgotten about this. One day morning, I was awakened by a phone call. This time was not from Carven, but the organizer. She congratulated me and told that I was successful to get into the finalists for Fashion Asian Top Fashion Upcoming Designer of the Year 2014. She further explained to me what I should prepare for the Award Presentation Ceremony. It was really a surprise to me until I thought I was in my dream when I finished the phone call. This award is really for the whole Asia who get nominated.

To be honest, I felt great to have joined this competition and grateful that I didn't turn down when Carven called me about this. My feeling was quite complicated as during the preparation period, I was quite worry and stressed. However, thank God, I managed to go through this and selected the best 5 gowns from my collection to be showcase during the award presentation ceremony in China. Despite all these complicated feelings, I told myself win or lose of this competition is not the only core concern, but it was like a class lesson for me to learn and explore something new from the other competitors and at the same time to get to know more new friends from different Asia countries like China, Japan, Singapore, etc.

One day before I left my country to fly to Chong Qing, China, I was still busy packing my stuff. I had no idea what should I pack for this competition. I even doubted that I was in a dream. There was no words for me to explain what my feeling was, maybe only one word, which is NERVOUS!

Together with other candidates from Malaysia, on 2 November 2014, I arrived Chong Qing airport, China at 8pm and we were being welcomed by organizer at the airport arrival hall. We were then headed to check in at the hotel prepared by the organizer. The first impression to me was they were good in customer service! Let me show you how cool was my room!

Here will be my warm bedroom for the next 5 nights... it was late at night when I checked in... what a tired day... gotta stop now, but will sure bring to you more interesting stories about the whole trip. My promise to you that I will spend more time to share my experience with you. Stay with me... 

To be continue....

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Colour . Graffiti . Art

Don't tell me you don't like ART! It's impossible! Nowadays, everything is link with art, like your smart phone, bag, shirt .... Every single thing definitely need designing that is creative and talented from designers and I believe you won't buy or fall in love with something that is ugly.

Lots of my friend are designer~ Graphic, Fashion, Website.... Bla Bla Bla, but the most awesome is GRAFFITI! What's the difference for this guy? I'm for sure he is talented enough to be a designer or an artist. In Malaysia you can see a lot of his creation everywhere.

Kenji Chai, a Graffiti Artist (for Black Fryday)! He was bred on comics, cartoons and storybooks from an early age and spent his days rummaging into these worlds of imagination. All his works includes the use of cute, colourful and vibrant characters with his main medium being graffiti combining elements of pop culture, fictional censorship and positive mental attitude, in all he creates layered scenes of mischief!!!

I don't wish to write so much about Kenji and let me show you all his awesome creations to substitute all my words.

Before ending my post, I need to ask if you guys have watch before a great movie name " The Hunger Game " ??? Part two (The Hunger Game: Catching Fire) is coming soon in this 21st

of November! At the same time Kenji will be crossing-over with this movie and using his own elements to create the graffiti tour, awesome right???

Don't miss the chance to see graffiti work in real!!!